So, first day of OJT is finally over. okay. first day. I didn't say I already finished the 150-hours-requirement. But anyway, I'm glad it's finally over, I have lots of thoughts in my mind today and I so want to share it now.. if I can still recall all of them... IF I CAN STILL RECALL ALL OF THEM AND TRANSLATE IT TO ENGLISH.
Look, so this is what reading of Princess Diaries influenced me. But hey, I really enjoy reading it. I do. But anyway, that's a little off topic.
Anyway.
To my thoughts.
First off, I woke up around 5:00 in the morning because of my iPod alarm (which is really not that nice.. because the alarm sound is so.. well, plain). but anyway, I still managed to wake up because I need to. it's my first day on my OJT and it's not a good move if I'm going to be late.
Anyway, aside from my first day in OJT, one thing that really, REALLY and UNSURPRISINGLY SERIOUSLY, bothering me today is what I watched last night:
look, first of all, Cone's like the host (okay, Stevo too) of that making of and there's one part (specifically 0:36) where they show the band playing with the woman in blue; which makes my damn wish false = that that woman in blue is Cone! (Call me crazy, but I'm always like that, esp. when I like the person, I'm starting to think of what he'll look like in drag..) Oh, and look at 1:53 = proof that that lady watching TV is Dercyk (yey!) but there's one more, around 1:59 to 2:00, there's an orange wig on the table or desk or whatever = proof that that woman in blue is not really a woman! which (hopefully) makes my wish come true! but whatever. it's really bothering me badly. I so like Cone right now. I'm so addicted to him that I prefer myself as the APA--grrl (apa means cone in Tagalog). And I want to see him in drag (coz almost all of my current crushes already dressed in drag. say, Pochie = well, he most of the time does that ; Dougie = Transylvania ; Danny = Transylvania ; Deryck = I just said that ; Del = I'm not quite sure though about this, the I don't feel like dancin' video. I don't know if he's that and of course, Adam = he's so pretty in the pirate pic where he looks like a Barbie! Oh, this is the pic: here! - from gossipcandy.com).
but whatever. it just keeps bothering me. I almost cry earlier in the OVPSS because of it. I'm actually sobbing last night because of it. I just can't release the tears because I'm chatting with my mom and she's going to see me and all... but it really breaks my heart, after all of the compliments and agreements people around me told me (like they did believed at me that that "woman" in blue is J), it's just... really, heart breaking.
Okay, look, I'm currently reading the 9th book of the Princess Diaries series and I think what I read kinda reflect my current status. Mia's also having this depression and so do I, only of course we have different reason. Dang.
I think I just look at the brightside:
hey, I finished the first day of my OJT. How was it? Stressful. Full of work. At least not boring. I'm so excited for the following days. Hmm... what will I bring? am I going to bring a scotch tape? Oh! PHOTOCOPYING is just, surprisingly, ONE OF THE BEST THING I EVER DONE. That's so crazy. But whatever, I enjoyed it. Well except when I'm photocopying papers with staple (I just hate it).
You know what?
I think I need to undergo a therapy too, a therapy how to remove my addiction to "guys-who-look-quite-pretty-or-not-in-drag-even-they're-straight" (with exemption to adam and del, of course)
